Im like the 6th and 7th letter

Im an f'in G

BWAHAHA
Last night=The best time Ive had in a long time. Made possible by Mr.Luke Taylor.. hese the best and sooo determined to make me smile.
We drove around Charleston.. flashed strangers... laughed our asses off. It was majical... =)

Plus weve got ninja powers.. =)

Besides that... Im doing great....

My ex is fucking insane.... can you say stalker...

Enough about him tho...

Im out
Meg

Havent you heard that Im gunna be okay

Alright. I thought my world was over over this stupid fucking break up.
But ya know what. Fuck him.
Im better off today then I havebeen..and Im thinking clearly...
First off. Im 20. And Im acting like more of an adult then he is..
Second. If he loved me...he wouldnt trying to be ruinig my life. Or have even flipped out as bad as he did. Everyone argues. And if you cant handle the first one..then it isnt going to work out.
Thirdly. Hese just an ass hole.

So. Hese so yesterday... Im movin on.
Wanna know about my fan club...
Of course you do.
Ive got not one two three four..but SEVEN guys lined up begging me to get over this shit and give them a nice little chance.
Im on the rebound...and none of them mean much to me (yet)
Well. This one named Billy kinda does. Hese a sweet heart.
He made me smile when I was cryin last night and I actually felt happiness.
He said to me. "I like you soo much. Its amazing how you even talk to me. Your funny. Gorgeous. Nice. And an awesome person. Your pretty inside and out. And your just out of this world...

Go ahead... go AWWW

Cause I know right...


Hese just soo cute..

Im gunna be okay ...i know this now =)

Meg

I hate you..But I love you.. I cant stop thinkin of you

Its true.. Im stuck on you...

Ugh. Rain rain go away come again another day...
why does it seem like a day when you would wanna see some sunlight it would fucking rain?
like its not raining inside my head...god is punishing me... lol

I dont know what to do with myself. Apparently.
He never wants to see me again... And its crushing me...
It feels like theres a thousand rocks sitting on my chest and they cant be picked up...
Why is it the one who broke your heart is the only one who can fix it?

I guess Im catching the bus to go to Belle tomorrow. Theres apparently this festival thing that I got invited to. Its sooo good to have friends that care... Jeffs the coolest =) ....
I told him what happened and how Im crushed and hese like fuck that shit...your too pretty to cry...
So hence. Hese gunna try and make me smile.
A part of me feels guilty for going. Cause I know he is only a rebound..but I dont know how else to cope with it. If I sit here. And just think bout it...Im going to go insane..lost of irrational thoughts are goin thru my mind... and trust me. That isnt safe.

I just wanna quit. Literally. Good game Megan. No Rematch.
Lifes a load of bullshit. Its a fucking game.
Your here. You love. You lose. You die. Your born alone. And in the end. You die alone.
The human condition...
So Im givin up on love. And Im givin up on trying to be happy cause everytime I am happy for a minute.... something happens. And I usually fuck it up. So this time. I am really gunna fuck it up.
Bwahaha ..... Never play a player. Fuck you life!

Aside from all that. Last night=crazy
Mud Maques. Shopping carts. Incredible Hulk.. enough said..
Oh yeah. And Leslies brain dead moment was rather impressive...

Well. Thats all for tonight.

"I exhale.. Its cold. Quiet. And Often Dead Silent. But Its How I breathe"=Davey Havok (the love of my freggin life_)

Meg

Every time I try to fly I fall...

Without my wings. I feel so small----

Today was a fucking terrible day.

I thought I knew what love was. I thought it was forever. I thought he was "the one"...
Apparently..there I go thinkin again... Theres that word. Love.
I love you has eight letters..as does BULLSHIT

Needless to say. I got broken up with. And Ive never been more crushed in my life. Its like. I have no emotions...besides being sad. Missing him. Its fuckig miserable...
And on top of that. When I left today. All I wanted to do was hold on and not let go. It hurts sooo bad... I cant stand it.
Its like. My hearts a peice of coal..and everytime it beats..another little peice of it is falling and turning into dust... And eventually. Its gunna be gone..
Im tryin my best to smile. And be hpppy. It isnt working. In the back of my mind all I can see is his smile..hear his laugh..taste his kisses... I wanna feel him hold me again...
I wasnt alone like I thought I was. I was being selfish.
I thought this is what I wanted. Its not.
I miss him sooo bad. And I dont know how to fix it...
I guess time heals everything. If Ive got the time... I dont even know who I am right now...
Megan. Thats it. Nothing else. Just Megan. A person. But theres nothing inside anymore.
It feels like every emotion Ive ever felt has been sucked outta me and now theres nothing but feeling hurt..and alone...

Thank god for Leslie and all my friends. Without you guys. Id fuckin lose it...
And Im feelin like super shit. I wanna go to sleep. But I know I cant.

Ugh. Send me something to make me smile...
whether its myspace or send me an e-mail
slityourstitches@aim.com
www.myspace.com/xoxofallchildxoxo

till next time
meg

I cant. I cant pick up the peices...

And Ive Thrown My Words All Around... And I Cant, I Cant Give You A Reason... I Just Wanna Tell You So You Know! -Yellowcard. Only One

Ugh. Today has been an all around bad day. I woke up in a bad mood to start with..
Then...
Things get worse from there... Why is everything on a downhill spiral. Literally. I miss my baby girl. Ive had the same fucking headache for the past two fucking weeks and it wont slack up. I am SICK AND TIRED of SKANKS tryin to take my boyfriend. I dont even know if theyre tryin to take him or just that FUCKING PATHETIC that they have to post little comments on his myspace.. ugh.

Im tired of it. And if I gotta take matters into my own hands.. Everyones gunna be sorry they fucked with Megan Krein. Simple as that.
Im just plain sick of everything..and everyone. Fuck em all.. Im not going to smile and be nice If I dont feel like it.
The whole giving my life up and getting shit in return isnt really makin me too happy. I told EVERY LAST GUY that I talked to hey guess what.. Ive got a boyfriend. And hence. None of them have been leaving me comments that are fuckin stupid ne more right. Wheres the same respect for me?
Im like 100 miles away from home. Im a town where I am my only friend.. I dont know ANYONE here... Im incredibly lonely all day everyday and then Im roughing it out and getting nothing for it. Not a simple "thank you". My thank you is dumb commie skanks being stupid all over my mans page.
Fuck em; This means war...


Peace Bitchez..
Meg

My only one....

Ugh. This fregging rains driving me insane... I have to keep curling my hair to keep the frizz down...

Your lipstick his color..dont bother Angel i know exactly what goes on...

Just thought Id add that...

I had some baby momma drama today. Seriously. The only thing saving the structure of this girls face is the fact that..if I kick her ass..hows it going to look when my boyfriend has to arrest me for battery... Lmao? I dont think that would look too good now huh? PLUS it might jeopardize Preston seeing Mylea. So it isnt worth it. I dont think
Dang.
Ive changed so much since highschool... The old me would just jump her smash her face... Now. However. Im thinking it through fully. Good job Megan. Good stinkin Job... =)

Yeah. I talk to myself. But I never talk back. If I did...That would be a problem wouldnt it?
My therapist thinks so...
=)

Speaking of therapist... I think I need to go find a therapist here..I need my happy pills...
Before I blow a fuse...

I think I need a puppy too.

Puppies and happy pills...Wtf? Hahaha....


Mabye a puppy that takes happy pills too. Like. Puppy prozac... Im genius. Does anyone know where theres a puppy with issues for sale at?
Feel free to leave me a message if you do...

Until next time
Megan

For some reason

Sleeping has become a delicasy for me. I dont get to do it much.
And I dont know whats wrong with me. I think it might be that me and Preston fell asleep mad at each other last night.
It sucked. I am not even tryin to hurt his feelings but apparently. Im a pro at it.

I need to pulll my head outta my ass tho... Cause I dont wanna lose him..

Aside from that.
Its________ you guessed it. Raining. Again.
Ugh. I hate the rain.

Ide love it if it were like thundering and add a little lightning and itd be all good. But its just. Grey. And ugly.

I cleaned house this morning. Hell. I even hands and knees mopped the floors just cause I wanted to be sure they were nice n clean. Im kissin up for the shit I pulled last night. Hopefully he notices. he should It smells wonderful in here. =)
I feel accomplished.

Neways
Im outtie

Meg