Im A Drama Queen

Today. Was, BORING
And so was last night.

Today Ive did.. alot of nothing. I talked to my mother for a little bit. Mostly about Miss Makenzi. Then I chatted with my BFF Leslie.
She cracks me up.
I GUESS some random couple messaged her and said lets have a threesome.Im like. Wtf? Who does that ne more.
She was totally taken back by it tho for real. I guess I woulda been to. IF someone ever said that to me.
I was like Les. Lemme send em some hate mail and tell em to back off my girlfriend. But I never got around to it.

Lets see. Preston left an hour early for work today. Ugh. Idk wats up there. Hese been gettin home kinda late as well. Hmmn.

I mean. I dont think hese cheating on me or anything like that. But theres also this chick from Belington whose sendin him comments on myspace sayin shit like. Your hot..Lalalala shit like that.
And I dont like it.
You dont see dudes polluting my page with that shit ne more cause omg. I let ppl know Im totally taken. And I love my man. Do you see ne thing about me on his page. Nope. Cant say ya do huh?

Mabye Im just wiggin cause I always expect the worst to happen to me. And I dunno. Mabue this time it isnt going to ...but Im putting my guard back up.

You can never be too safe I guess. I just dont wanna get hurt anymore.
I rly love this guy. And well. I dont intend on letting him go so easy. So who ever this bitch is. Better recognize realllllyyyy quick HESE MINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On a lighter note. Last night I laughed more then I have in a long time. Leslie cracks me up. we talked about the old days and how different our lives are now. I miss her like woah.
Hopefully shese comin up soon =hint hint=

neways
Im done.

Meg

Megan E. Dont Forget The E Around Me..

And if you do then get the f around me... hahahahah

Soo. Its raining outside today. Ugh. And to make the rain so much better. Im sick. I thuoght I felt bad yesterday...noooo. Todays so much worse. Like really what the fucks wrong with me. Im nautious. My head hurts. My body just feels like I wanna lie down and sleep and sleep.

Besides from all that. I had a fucked up mood goin on last night. I was all cryin and pissed off. And there was no real reason for me to be that upset over something so small. I dont even think it was worth it. All it was was a smart ass comment from Preston and it wrecked my world. Its okay. He fixed it tho. ;)

Im starting to think that mabye things aint going be be all bad this time. Like, somethings telling me "Go ahead hand him your heart. He aint going to smash it into a million peices".... I mean. He has my heart. But I keep lookin for something bad to happen. I expect it.
But. Nothing has yet.
Will it ever?

I feel like Ive met the most amazing guy ever. And I kick my self in the ass everyday cause I let him go once. And blew him off. Lied. You name it. I did it. Well. Except cheat. Thats not rly my thing.
And yet here I am. With him everyday. When I get woke up in the morning its for a kiss good bye and so he can tell me he loves me before he goes to work.... Im thnkin I might have found the one that everyone dreams about finding. Hese just.... I dont even know how to describe it. Amazing. Fantastic. Still minor words that dont equal to half of what he is.

Am I losing it?
Nope. I guess love makes you do crazy things. =).....
So lock me up cause Im in love and I have lost it......


Whatelse is there to talk about?

I cant think of anything particular..sooo
Im out

=deuces=
Meg

The weekends over....

The radio told me to stay. As it burned down. I sang alone. --AFI




Sooo where to start with the weekend? Mkay, well... FIIIRRRSSSTTT Miss Mylea was here from Friday till today. Its nice having that little princess over. It sure gives me something to do.
Me and Preston FINALLY got that couch I mentioned earlier. Omg. It looks sooo nice. And we went and got the matching curtains to put up with it. Its amazing how a few small things can make such a huge difference..cause THE LIVING ROOM LOOKS GREAT!!!!!
What else?

Not alot happened really. I talked to my mom earlier I think Im going to Charleston tomorrow to pick up the rest of my things that Ive got scattered all over the place down there. Im not really lookin forward to the trip...but its going to be nice to see my mom and little brother. Omg I miss them soooo much.
I just saw Preston drive by. Hese working. Its a good feeling to see him watching over me when he is at work. Its a safe and secure feeling for sure. I love this guy sooo much.
Really. Seriously.
I do.
He treats me like I am the princess of the world. And its amazing how I can miss him just as soon as he mentions leaving me just to go to work. Or even into the other room. Im sure he has to get agrivated with me...when hese tryin to play that video game of his when every 20 mins Im walking in here to kiss him and tell him I love him. Haha. Sorry babe <3

Anyways
Im cookin and doing laundry. So Ive gotta get for now

Chow
Meg

Im like the energizer playboy bunny...

Well.

So far the puppy hunt has been a disaster. I havent found one yet. Ugh. Well I did but I cant get the morons to answer their damned phone.

I really want one of the puppies like woah.


I wont be blogging tomorrow. Ill be too busy. Mylea will be here<3 Shese a dollbaby..and I love her.

Neways
Nothing new.


Till next time

Meg

I've been thinkin bout how to say my name...

What you know about bein a gangsta. What you know about being in danger! -Hollywood Undead "Undead"


Another day awake like. During a single digit time. Ugh. Why?
I dont get it. Prestons got me so use to being next to him in bed that when he gets up and leaves..I never fall back asleep. Monday nights going to be fun. Cause he works night. And wont be home till like four in the morning.


Last Night...
We actually went to Applebee's. It was alotta fun. We made fun of stupid people. Watched the penguins game... Which kept cuttin in and out... So we got aggrivated and left. But during the time we were there Preston managed to get kinda lit... Sooooo I had to drive =) it was cute.
We went to Wal-Mart and I got a rly cute notebook for my G.E.D. class. Its got all kinds of bright colored hearts all over it. I love it.
The people in my class will most likely think Im weird tho. Cause. Yesterday when I went in. Half of them are still goin through that gothic stage. And the other half are all serious. Here walks in some girl with a big Chanel purse.. Bright clothes. Blonde hair thats all curly and pretty... And now shese added a really bright notebook to the equation. I bet they are gonna be like... Whats her deal? Or even call me Barbie.

I dont care tho, Im not there to make friends with them. ( altho I wish I could make friends) a G.E.D. class isnt the first place I would look for a friend at... Im there to get my G.E.D so I can actually do something with my life. Im thinkin some college...Woo..
I wanna be an astronaut. Kidding. But something like a massage therapist would be cool. I think?

Whatelse?

Oh...on my agenda for the day.

IM LOOKIN FOR A PUPPY!!!!

Preston wants me to find us a chocolate lab puppy. A purebred one. With papers and stuff.
I dont even know where to look. Hopefully the gas station next door has a news paper with stuff like that in it. Ya know. Like an ad bulletin or something like that. It would make my job sooo much easier.

I need a tanning bed. My color is starting to fade. Problem is.
The only tanning bed in this town...Preston hates the owner cause its the wife of that dumb fuck mayor who fired him once.
Thank god for this new one. Shese awesome=)
But he said for me not to ever go there. So I wont.
Mabye the salon across the street has one. I saw a place in elkins where you can tan for a whole month for just twenty bucks!!! thats insane... but depressing.
Cause I dont have twenty bucks. Or a way to Elkins everyday to tan.

When the weather gets pretty wonder what all the passing by traffic would think if I laid out in the yard in my bra and panties. Im thinkin lots of accidents. Haha.

Anyhow. Im doin up some laundry.

Till Next Time
Meg

Oh yeah One more thing

I almost forgot this really funny story.

At my G.E.D. class I went to sit at a table. There was an ugly guy sittin there with a mean mug on his face,
John (my teacher) announced to me really loud... "If anyone gives you trouble you be sure and tell em your boyfriends the chief of police"
The whole class stopped what they were doing and looked at me like are you fuckin serious.

Im like yeah.. I definately dont think Im goin to make friends now. Well. I might. Based on the fact that they wouldnt wanna piss me off.
Still

This town is lonely when you dont know anyone... I guess mabye I should try to make friends.

I thought for a second that I might be able to be friends with Prestons baby momma. She called here earlier and I told her that he was workin ...so she asked me to tell him to call her when he got home,
Well when he came in for lunch earlier.. Hese like Lisa called me at work..and said"That girl answered the phone" and that she said"I just thought Ide call you personally to make sure you get the message"
Nu huh. I dont deal with people being negative about me too well. The only thing thats gunna save her in this case is that I love preston enough not to do ne thing irrational to get him in any kind of predicament that might cause him to lose visiting his daughter.
And jail. Cause I hate that place. And she seems the type to try and press charges...

Nehow
Thats all I wanted to say Before I forget it..haha

Meg

Do Somethin Crazy

Sooo the G.E.D. thing went really well. I havent been to school in like three years. And all my tests were average orrr ABOVE average! Woo! Im suprised as hell. I was so excited to get home and tell Preston all about it. Too bad he wasnt at the office on the way through.
But to my suprise Ten minutes after im home he comes walkin through the door to come home and have lunch with me!!!
I told him all about my day and he told me how his was so far.
Last night we didnt go bowling. ( I didnt think we would) As usual. We change plans just as soon as we make em.
But tonight were going to go to applebee's .... I think. Haha.

Well actually Im pretty sure we are.

So last night we went to the animal shelter to see if this dog was there..but the gate was locked, then rented a movie. Came home. He played his video game for a little bit. Then we watched some of his old Ravenswood Police movies. It was interesting. I saw my baby in a pursuit. ( well the car he was chasing ne ways)... then we laid down and watched The Spirit. I fell asleep in the beginning so I couldnt tell you wat it was about if I wanted to.

Its not raining today. Thankfully. Its actually sunny and has stayed that way. Im so excited about that. Its kinda chilly so I havent been outside alot. No more then necessary ne how.

Whatelse.... Hmmn.
Tomorrow we go to pick up Mylea. Thats Prestons little girl. And she is a freggin dollbaby. We get her everyweekend. From Friday to Monday!!! Thats awesometacilur. I love having her here.

But other then that. There isnt anything interesting going on.
Oh wait,.
I updated my myspace today. And its more fitting to me now other then all that Ill kick your ass kinda hateful shit. haha.

Till Next Time
Meg

And The Exs..On The Back Of your Hands

Wash them in the bath room and drink with the band!!! =)



Im getting ready to go to Philip Barber High School to go take a pre G.E.D. test to get ready for the actual test which I will be taking may the ninth... The pretest is to see what are my strong and weak points so I know what I should work on for the next two weeks to get ready to take the test!!!

Wish me luck!

Meg

This Made Me Think Of Preston

Halo-Beyonce

Remember those walls I built?
Well baby theyre tumbling down.
They didnt even put up a fight.
They didnt even make a sound,
I found a way to let you in.
But I never had a doubt,
Standing in the light of your halo.
I found my angel now.

Feels like Ive been awakened,
Every rule I had you breakin.
Its the risk that Im takin.
Im never gonna shut you out.

Everywhere Im lookin now.
Im surrounded by your embrace,
Baby I can see your halo.
You know your my saving grace.
Your everything I need and more.
Its written all over your face.
Baby I can feel your halo.
I pray it wont fade away.

Hit me like a ray of sun.
Burning through my darkest night.
Your the only one that I want.'
Think Im addicted to your light.
I swore Id never fall again.
But this dont even feel like falling.
Gravity cant forget
To pull me to the ground again.

Oh my beautiful one!

If your Boyfriends Got Beef Tell Him Im A Vegetarian... And Im not Fuckin Scared Of Him-

3oh!3 is the shit

So. Basically. Its only like ten in the morning. Ive been awake since about eight... Why so early? Well... Preston was leaving for work and crawled into bed to kiss me good-bye and I woke up just for the few seconds and BAM...next thing I know I'm tossing and turning couldnt keep my eyes shut so I decided screw it. Ill get up. And here I am. Blogging before noon..who does that? Well I guess Megan does now! =)

So last nights dream was kinda weird... I only remember bits and peices of it..but I remember running through the woods like something was chasing me..Only problem was..there wasnt anything I could see...but the leaves were rustling and sticks and twigs were snapping but I kept running till I got to the road and then when I got there standing on the other side of the road was my little brother and he acted like he couldnt hear me when I was telling him to run with me. He just stood there. I dunno. But it was weird as hell. I havent had a nightmare in a while. And Im going to guess that mabye I need to call my old shrink cause usually when they start up again all of a sudden...they dont quit and they will get worse. Time to get some old meds back... Ugh.

So I talked to my mom for like an hour and a half yesterday..that was interesting. She acts like she hasnt seen me in like five years..haha the way she talks. I mean dont get me wrong I appreciate the fact that shese worried about me and misses me..but damn. Why take an hour and a half to tell me that again and again..and then tell me if anything happens that she will be here to get me.
Whats the worse thats going to happen? I explained to her that Im fine. Im better then fine and Prestons a really good guy. Way way way way better then all the other ones that have came and went in my life time. Getting her to listen to that is the problem tho. Cause shese heard that before...and then been in the hospital with me when one of them ran me over. God I love that woman.

I didnt even know her until I was about fourteen though. When I was six I moved in with my dad and my brother went to his dad in Morgantown. So hell. I didnt even know him. Then when I was fourteen goin on fifteen my mom got back involved in my life completely and I left my dads house in Ravenswood to live with her... And two months later..Dallas came home too and we were all finally a family again.


So tonight...
Im going bowling ( I think)... Preston mentioned it last night. Although we never seem to do what we plan to do. We always end up doing something else. Like the other night we were supposed to go n see a movie.. and instead we went to taco bell (my choice) then went and bought a new computer desk and guess who decided they wanted to put it together? Meeee! And guess what else...it turned out great. We set it up and put the computer and everything on it and its doing rly rly good. Preston was sure suprised cause he said that he didnt think Id be able to do it. And when he walked in the living room he figured I MIGHT have like half of it done but suprise suprise I only had like two more pieces to put on there and they were just for looks! =) see...I can do productive stuff!!!

So Im supposed to be cookin dinner tonight, and I got into the freezer this morning to pick out what I wanted. One Problem. If a meat isnt marked... Ive got noo fuckin idea what it is. So I grabbed something that I thought looked good and Im gonna wing it...Hopefully it turns out good. I think it might be chicken... I dont know for a hundred percent yet....haha


Im tryin to figure out the layout and stuff I want for this thing. And Im pretty sure this one is the coolest one I saw. So if you know of any place where I could find one that fits "Me" .... by the way.. Im rockin out to Aly and Aj. No idea why...just thought they would be good to listening to. Im tryin to listen to happy tunes today considering ITS STILL FUCKING RAINING!!!!
Ugh. Its ugly outside. Mud puddles everywhere its dark and dreary,, would have been a good day to sleep in. Thanks Preston.

Tomorrow I go take my G.E.D pre test to see what are my strong points and weaker ones so I know what to work on for May the 9th when I take the actual G.E.D test. Wish me luck. It shoulnt be too hard....right?


Oh well. Enough for now. Ill update later probably....


Meg

It gets better then you'll know...

Ugh. Im not even a hundred percent sure where I should begin on here. My hectic life cannot be summed up with the touch of the keys and a few witty catchphrases...
Hell. Im not even sure why Im doing this honestly. 'I guess Biancas was so neat that I thought Id give it a try... So here it goes... I dont even think Ive had a journal or anything of that sort since like...middle school.

Im sitting here lookin out the window of the office at my new house in Belington... Its raining and everyone still continues to drive like damned idiots. Usually when the roads are wet...your more likely to lose control right? I always thought so. But yet they still continue to do so and when they finally meet that day whenever they do crash...Who do they blame. Of course its never their own fault. It was someone elses. Does anyone ever take responsibility for their actions anymore? I try to and Ill admit Im guilty of blaming others to make myself feel better. But in the end..its still my own fault. Im woman enough to admit to that.

The best thing that has ever happened to me will be home, safe and with me in an hour when he gets off work. I know he probably wont get hurt at work but I always lose my mind when he'se gone wondering...what if? What if he pulls over an angry person and gets ran over or so on so forth...
My boyfriend is the chief of police here in this small town. And Im always terrified for him. Its a small town true..but if you have to carry a gun to work for your safety...then it might not always be fool proof.
More about the boyfriend tho. ?His name is Preston. And needless to say he'se my other half. ive never been this in love before..and it seems like it was just yesterday when I met him. He is everything 'Ive ever wanted. Finally Megan gets her cinderella story!

I guess it took the right guy to put that smile back on my face. And this time...Im not letting him go.


Enough Of that already...


I quit the drugs. 'The stripping. The tryin to be something I wasnt. Thats all over with. Im Megan again. 'And its never felt better to look in the mirror and feel like I recognize myself. Im getting my life on track one day at a time...and Ive got my rock (Preston) to push me. And when it feels like I cant do it... Hese right there to tell me yes I can.

Everything is different. And I love it.

I went from this strung out stripper living on the west side,,,, back to that small town kinda girl. The one you can trust and actually be friends with. A genuine smile again!!! Isnt that great.

My name is Megan Elizabeth Krein. Im 20. I love my boyfriend and music. I hate judgemental people and my ankles. Im blonde and Ive got blue eyes. My favorite song in the world is Passive by A Perfect 'Circle... Im drug free and Ill help anyone with anything. 'Ill be your shoulder to cry on if ya need it.

And to all my friends. I miss you. We need to get together oneday, thatd be amazing.

I love you.

Well. Im going to stop with the random bitching and go find something to do for the next 40 minutes till he comes through the door.

"May someone hand you a pair of velvet gloves"
Meg